Archive for September, 2009

i’ve been a very bad blogger

Wednesday September 16, 2009

What can I say?  It is so true.  And don’t think I don’t feel guilty about it.

Because I do.

But this has been a summer that I actually enjoyed.  I went outside. I sat in my porch – in the morning, afternoon, and evening…for hours. I gardened. I went on walks. I BBQed. I made mojitos. I went to the State Fair. TWICE.  Oh yeah, and I watched TV. Reality TV like Top Chef. Daytime TV like The View. And Nighttime TV like David Letterman.

I used to despise. DESPISE.  summer. It was just way too hot for me.

Maybe because I used to. USED TO. drive to work in an air conditioned car and go to work in an air conditioned office.  I remember dreading the minutes I had to walk to my car. It’s not like I didn’t like being outside – it was just such a shock to my system.

Oh yeah, and I am not built for the heat.

I sweat. My face sweats. And gets red. It is very obvious that I am uncomfortable. And I don’t tan. I just turn red.

You should have seen me in Thailand. I was uncomfortably hot and burning ALL THE TIME.

Amanda was all like, “This is so great” and I was like, “This is so HOT.”

What I am trying to say is that I had a really great summer.

BUT I am looking forward to Fall.  Which will most likely include apple pie, pumpkin carving, raking leaves and hopefully a little more regular blogging.

do you think i am starting to get nervous?

Tuesday September 15, 2009

Last night I dreamt it was the day of my second wedding (which is this Friday!).

It was pouring rain.

And I had NOT charged the batteries for my camera.

bright eyed and bushy tailed

Wednesday September 2, 2009

Friday, September 4th is my one year anniversary of leaving The College of St. Catherine a.k.a. St. Catherine University.

I didn’t have a new job lined up when I quit. I just had had enough. I was so tired of hating (almost) every second of the day.

People would ask me, bright eyed and bushy tailed, “So where are you going!?”

My response, “Nowhere. I don’t have a new job. I just can’t be here anymore.”

Insert: blank stares and the sound of crickets.  Chirp chirp chirp

With the resignation of my friend and colleague Abigail Garner, I had never been more disappointed about a place in my whole life.

I was disappointed that my expectations were not met.
I was disappointed with the leaders of my department and administration.
I was disappointed that nothing ever changed.

I was tired of the bullshit.

Even with all the bullshit, I did meet some lovely women and am grateful for the experience I had at St. Kate’s.  I can appreciate the academic freedom and the spirit of St. Kate’s students.  Most of Jake’s family went to St. Kate’s so I understand what a special place it is to them.  However, my experience was on a different side of things and unfortunately…well, it didn’t work out for me. Slowly my confidence and enthusiasm were suffocated.  And I couldn’t breathe anymore – I had to leave.

This last year has been the strangest and most humbling year of my life. At first I felt like I went through a sort of detox…because I slept and slept and slept.  I stumbled and procrastinated and cried a lot.  I had to restore my confidence and be able to walk into a room and say, “I am taking a break. I don’t know what I am going to do. But I am figuring it out.”

Some people got it…but most people just thought I was crazy.

But then the pieces starting falling together and now I can’t even blog anymore I am so busy! Woohoo!

The photography business is really picking up and it feels great. I shot my first wedding last Friday and my next one is Sept. 18th (in between I get to practice at my cousin Abby’s wedding in North Carolina this weekend). I have also had a kid’s shoot and a real estate shoot and got paid for both!

Of course, Jake is my rock and I couldn’t have done any of this without his support, kindness, and faith.  And let’s face it, paychecks.

After almost a year of nothing…finally, something is really happening.